Wednesday, May 30, 2012


So, I started today off in less than the happiest of moods. As the day has progressed my mood has gotten worse as a result of a lot of things, the most prevalent being a feeling of complete hopelessness and utter despair. Sometimes I just wonder if we're ever going to get out of this hole we're in. And just when I was ready to start a blog complaining about everything that seems to be going wrong, something stopped me. So, this post is going to be my "Thank You" post. I don't know how religious y'all are, but I believe there is a higher power out there. Yes, my belief has been shaken a lot in the past few months, but I do still believe and I want to take the time out and give thanks for everything else that is going right in my life.

Thank you for letting me be alive.
Thank you for letting me have my love in my life.
Thank you for letting me be surrounded by family, old and new.
Thank you for letting me find my job.
Thank you for blessing me with health.
Thank you for blessing me with a rational mind.
Thank you for blessing me with your presence.
For everything else I cannot begin to express

Thank you

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

I'm back!

Hello blog world! It has been well over a year since I last updated this blog and I am so sorry! Needless to say, quite a lot has happened since then.

I'm engaged! Woohoo! I've been engaged for almost a year now but (sadly) wedding planning isn't coming along as well as we hoped. But I suppose that's what happens when you try making a permanent long-distance move, find a job in this economy, go to school full-time, and try to take steps towards making a positive future, all at the same time. Go figure. While the previous list was a combination of things my now fiance (whee!) and I have been trying to do, things aren't all in the dump. We're alive! And we're finally together after being long-distance for so long. These are two things I feel extremely blessed for.

In other news, my graduation was pushed back. I was supposed to graduate in the Spring, but with me being sick and everything else going on, I ended up withdrawing. So now I look forward to being a Fall graduate! At first I was kind of bummed, but I would prefer to graduate with my best possible foot forward instead of while running on fumes. After graduation, my future is kind of up in the air. I do have a job which is nice, though the hours could be better sometimes. But, it's still a paying job so I can't complain too much there. If I can find some time to get volunteer work in during the Fall, then I'll probably apply to the nursing certificate program at one of my local colleges. But...this also depends on the outcome of something else....

My fiance, who has only physically been with me for the better part of 6 months, is considering the military as a career! On the one hand, I'm extremely proud of him. I mean, serving in the military is no easy feat. It requires dedication, discipline, and determination, all of which he possess in abundance. On the other hand, I know that, due to training and Tech school and what not, we would probably be long-distance again. We would definitely be long-distance when it would come time for him to deploy. And, after we're married, I would probably be moving pretty far from my family. Now, I can admit to being one of those children who swears up and down they'll leave their hometown for greener pastures, but now that it could be a reality, I'm pretty sure I was just spouting nonsense, ya know? But, I won't worry about that bridge until we cross it. And I'll keep praying on it.

One last update before I leave for work (I know. I picked the perfect time to start a blog post): I'm determined to lose weight and get fit! I'm sure I've said this numerous times in the past, but this time I mean it. I was on the right track when I was on my school's rowing team for a semester but after I left, I began sliding down, or rather up, the scale again. I'm hoping that by posting on this blog I'll (and hopefully you all) keep myself accountable for everything regarding fitness and my health. It also helps that we're trying to get the fiance, who I'll call X for now, into shape before he heads off to BMT (Basic Military Training). So this won't be an entirely uphill battle!

Well...I guess I should start getting ready for work. Sorry for this long and rather boring look into my life (well, except for the engagement, woohoo!). If you've read this far, thank you! And if you'd like to drop a word and say hello I wouldn't be adverse to that!  ^_^